i feel oh so cheated. why was i so stupid. to think it was special. it turned out all wrong just like how things always do. i miss you and its so so wrong i know. but i think ive already fallen and i think i broke something. and i havent even landed. oh this sucks

Hiatus
Defintion:A gap or interruption in space, time, or continuity; a break
Sentence: im going on a haitus, so dont miss me(:

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sports day is a waste of time. and i got sun burn now. the class is stupid. and i feel exactly the same way i felt last year at the same time. emelia says its dejavu. hahaha. oh anyway. i lvoe divya! sandhya says happy birthday to you. i miss bee leng. i dont have la okay! my god
who say one! hahaha! i know im wrong to miss you.

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went to divyas house for birthday party today(: i got presents. like finally! hahahha! the cards are so so so sweet! i didnt know the whole thing was going on! and trust me. i know everything:D thanks everyone who wrote something for me! i love all of them(:
MYEs are like so so so so close. i need to start studying. but i dont know where to start! i dont even know how to. you made everythign a chore. even smiling. if youre feeling guilty. you should.
happy birthday divya! its early but who cares(: youve been such a wonderful friend for like...2 years? hahahahaha. i hate it when you break anything. expecially your leg. toe. whatever(: youre so drama and whenever i go out with you, youre garunteed to make people stare at us. and youve got this special way of making me do things i would never do. its kinda like being drunk. hahahaha! YBM. sounds like PMS doesnt it. why dont you start shortening everything else too? hahahhaha. being born in the same hospital and 3 days apart is damn cool:D imagine being in the same nursery. you must have bullied me even then. keep me awake with yuor annoying screams! hahaha. well. we'll never know for sure(: but the one thing i do know is youre my best friend and its propably going to stay like that for a long long time. even if your prince charming does grow and you two decide to elope(: ill just stay put in wonderful singlehood and watch you scream at your kids. wont that be fun?

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i feel so depressed now.
it WAS a perfect birthday. but the night was ruined. you cant just let me have one happy day right.
i will the tears to come but they wont, perhaps they know that you're not worth them.
hey stranger. next time you want to break my heart,do it when its not my birthday and when im close enough to slap you


When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused
When it all gets turned around and 'round I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do
Is think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

but,where's my you?

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happy birthday to me(:
thanks to all those who wished me. i really appreciate it(:
it was a wonderful birthday(:
im adding this sentence cause i want to put another smiley face at the end of it(:
im 14 now(:
yay(:
im smiling so much it hurts(:
i love everyone(:

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dentist: so do you being your child for adam khoo?
mum:no la. so expensive.
dentist: the motivation thing one right?
(who the hell is adam khoo?)
mum: ya.you send your kid to his workshops?
dentist: no la! my boy sleeps till 12 noon, how to motivate him like that.

dad: cause she doesnt drink enough water la.
doctor: why? water too expensive ar?
(wth??no!)
doctor: go to new york the high class hotels also canot drink form the tap one leh.
(do i look like i can afford to go to new york??)

she sits alone, the touch still lingers there. she watches from afar and literally feels a hand wrenching her one and only heart. they dont seem to care. only now does she realise what lies have been spun just to make her feel wanted, accepted, longed for. she looks at them and their actions, she feels tears welling up but wills herself not to cry,simply cause they are not worth it. her heart is suddenly so full of hatred she is ready to burst into little pieces. she wonders if anyone will care if all those little pieces of her became stars. would they still wish upon stars then? or will they be so occupied they forget about the true, unwavering things they have around them? shes decided. she will not make herself unhappy unneccesarily. only, is she brave enough to keep to that determined decision? she turns and sees a pair of intent staring eyes aimed at her. she blinks, surprised. then she slowly smiles a smile which betrayed the vast amount of troubles and burdens which have made her so jaded. 'why do those who dont have to care care and those who have to care dont?' she wonders for the last time as she walks out of the door and slams it shut.

im feeling emo. thats why i wrote that thingey up there. haha. im sick and i wanted to talk to someone but nobody's online. i wonder if theyre avoiding me. i hope i really am thinking too much. and its not the truth.

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