you obivously dont love me
WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i cant stand it anymore. no more. im am SO UTTERLY BORED. I HAVENT GONE OUT THE WHOLE OF LAST WEEK I HAVENT PROPERLY SMILED THE WHOLE OF LAST WEEK I HAVENT PROPERLY FELT PROPER THE WHOLE OF GOD DAMNED LAST WEEK. SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING.
i will die if i do not talk to someone soon. seriously. im left here wondering where the hell all my friends have eloped to. im here all alone thinking why the hell didnt i just kill myself when i had the chance to. im here wondering why im such a good girl eventhough i am NOT getting anything back in return. im STILL wondering when the hell you will stop playing your silly little games and love me.
okay. forget it. ill FIND something to entertain me since NOBODY IN THE GOD DAMN WIDE UNIVERSE cares. i pour out my anger to someone and all i get is a oh okay. you know what i have had enough of feelings. im going to inject anesthetics into my brain so its all numb and i cant feel a thing. i dont know why i feel so betrayed. im not even related to you in the first place. you have every right to do as you please but it doesnt FEEL right. you might be off frolicking in the meadows of Happy Land but have you ever spared a thought for me and the blind trail youve led me on. i expected something. and as the saying goes. the higher the hopes the greater the fall. or something like that.

now if youll excuse me i need to go and cry my heart out.

memories hurt but not having them is sheer torture