i just realised my friends know me very very well. its scaring me. i always thought i was really good at hiding my feelings. but apparently not. so now im practically an open book to anybody who knows me well enough. who didnt anybody tell me they know exactly what im thinking? instead of letting me think nobody knows my feelings at all. but im happy now i guess. at least i know my friends understand me well(:

and theres aboslutely nothing to say about this house. its not home.

and im so so pathetic im driving everybody nuts. how totally stupid. patheticpatheticpathetic.
all of you say that. i know i should do that. but i CANT do that. i just cant. i mean like hello! im afraid of the dark. what makes you guys think i can actually do that? im so so so dead. i feel so shitty. ha. happiness is always short lived. but even if you told me that again and again i dont think i would learn my lesson.

so how do i go about doing that?
hey darling i still got lots to say. how about you start again and we can go back to old times

;je'taime