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me and divya(:
me and rasi(:
:D
and after that, divya REALLY punched rasi.
so anyway, it's been a long long time. and i feel the time passing. its been almost 2 months now, and all i can say is some days are better than the rest. oh what the hell. there's nothing left for me there. so byee(:
Be my guest,
rain on my parade,
but I have
the biggest freaking
umbrella you've ever seen
i still hurt
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Deniisha!
oh my god. its been 8 years. we werent together all of these 8 years but i've grown into a habit of always translating chinese for you and being a sarcastic piece of bitch whenever i complain to you. it has to be hard i guess and this friendship is seriously what i consider to be like the classic 'weathered lots and lots of storms, bitching and insanity' type of friendship. i feel guilty towards you too. primary school wasnt exactly happy land for you and i had a part to play in it. but thats a whole other story which i am not going into on the internet. so sorry. i wish i could say i wish i didnt do all the mean stuff i did then but then, if those fights didnt happen, this friendship wouldnt have happened too. so no way am i gonna say i wish we didnt fight. youre like an emotional disaster what with all the quotes and the thinking and the crying, but i guess thats what makes you so nice to talk to and easy to spill guts out to(: its a comfort just to know youre there. here. whatever. ahah. i know you and you know me. this type of trust doesnt come easy to you nor to me so i guess all thats left to say is treasure me like i treasure you! i love you!
"I couldn't tell you why we are best friends, because you wouldn't understand. The explanation is full of too many inside jokes & made up words; it's full of too much care & too many tears,too many laughs & too many blonde moments.I don't think I will ever be able to give you a better reason, except she's always been there"
HA GOT IT FROM YOUR BLOG DENIISHA:D
okay dont be jealous. i dont just dedicate posts to random people okay. only to emelia and deniisha. be honoured you two:D anyway, i love all my friends, just know that i cant write for everyone(: am really sorry im not super woman but hey. thats life(:
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life is unfair.
its a fact. im not sulky over it, im not going into full revenge mode and im not going to start bawling over the unfairness of it all. im going to accept it(: or at least try to keep my comments to myself. i talk too much anyway.
soooo. went out with deniisha today(: went to the museum! hahaha! then we went to the beach. and i look ugly today. and the pictures are posted at deniisha's blog already so im not posting all(: going out 3 days in a row is making me tired. this is like the last time im doing last minute chirstmas shopping. the stress is killing me. and omgg. deniisha said the thing she wanted to buy for me is not there anymore. which is freaking sad cos i wanted it so bad. but it doesnt matter(: ill still love christmas:D
one picture(:
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insult me all you want but leave my friends alone. this isnt a warning. its a direct order.
sorry emelia, meant to be discreet but i dont think i can be when it comes down to this. i cant say i like being discreet either(: its the mature thing to do sure, but i dont feel very mature right now.
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eventhough i know because of the whole experience, my future will hurt, i want to live in the moment again. to experience pure joy again. even if it hurts this much later on, well i guess its worth it. i have so much to say. so, so much. you'll never know how sorry i am unless you talk to me. im just so sorry. i want you to know and i want to know too. okay i dont make any sense, but then, when did i ever make sense when im talking to you?
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And when they got married and decided to have one of their own,
She said "Be honest, tell me what do you want?"
And he said "Honey, you oughta know...
Sweet, little, beautiful... one just like you.
Oh a beautiful, wonderful, perfect All-American"
so sweeeeeet:D
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sooo. I'm leaving on friday and i haven't even started thinking about what I'm going to bring. i don't even know which luggage I'm bringing. you know, if i were younger, i would romanticize this whole trip and go. 'oh I'm leaving this town, leaving all my hurt and memories behind.' and stare out the damn airplane window like I'm an actress in a bad b list movie. but hey. you know what. i am through romanticizing every single thing. not only is it embarrassing, it hurts cause its not real. and from now on, I'm on a strict reality only diet. it hurts but god. what doesn't hurt. even brownies and ice cream make you fat. so see? everything hurts. when doctors go this wont hurt abit they probably mean this will hurt so much you'd wished you skipped life and gone straight to death.
oh and one more thing. i absolutely abhor people who
1.answer questions with questions.(like wth? how about answer first, ask later? i'm not an international spy out to sabotage the country. i'm 14 for god's sake!)
2.throw a tantrum when you ask a question. and don't answer the question in the end.(like don't go through all the trouble of screaming in anger if you're not going to answer the bloody question)
3.don't answer the god damn question. (this is the worst. i hate it when people ignore me. makes me want to shout in their ears HEY. REMEMBER ME. IM STANDING RIGHT HERE. AND I AM ASKING YOU A QUESTION. SO IF YOU WOULD JUST FIND YOUR MISSING MANNERS MAYBE YOU COULD ANSWER ME?)
well whadaya know. this is the longest post of probably these two months. and not even a mention of that. or it. whatever. im just looking for something to do to put off packing. have i meantion i really hate packing? well not really. just hate packing for family holidays. okay. digressing here. so yes. i guess im over it. bring out the champagne(:
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my legs ache.
oh baby, don't cry.