has anybody else realised its only 3 more freaking weeks to school reopening? whatever happened to the holiday? i feel as exhausted as i was before. and i feel even sadder if thats possible. new class, new classmates, new teachers, new everything and honestly, i dont really like new. okay. i have no idea where all the time has gone to, but i really wish it would run back. i talked to emelia on the phone a few days back and well. it was truthful(: i love you emelia(: and deniisha. i talked to her a few days back too. it was quiet and understanding(: i love you deniisha(: i learnt alot though this year. i learnt that i was self absorbed and annoying. i learnt that its dangerous to let yourself wallow in self pity. i learnt that i loved once. and probably still do. i learnt to treasure my friends. i learnt to be contented with what i have and not let ugly feelings get through me. i learnt that im not perfect and im still learning about myself. time took away so many of the things i liked, loved, but it gave me too. all these that i've learnt help me grow i guess. so even if time does take away, it gives back too. so maybe i'll be comforted by that thought.
eventhough i know because of the whole experience, my future will hurt, i want to live in the moment again. to experience pure joy again. even if it hurts this much later on, well i guess its worth it. i have so much to say. so, so much. you'll never know how sorry i am unless you talk to me. im just so sorry. i want you to know and i want to know too. okay i dont make any sense, but then, when did i ever make sense when im talking to you?

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