dentist: so do you being your child for adam khoo?
mum:no la. so expensive.
dentist: the motivation thing one right?
(who the hell is adam khoo?)
mum: ya.you send your kid to his workshops?
dentist: no la! my boy sleeps till 12 noon, how to motivate him like that.

dad: cause she doesnt drink enough water la.
doctor: why? water too expensive ar?
(wth??no!)
doctor: go to new york the high class hotels also canot drink form the tap one leh.
(do i look like i can afford to go to new york??)

she sits alone, the touch still lingers there. she watches from afar and literally feels a hand wrenching her one and only heart. they dont seem to care. only now does she realise what lies have been spun just to make her feel wanted, accepted, longed for. she looks at them and their actions, she feels tears welling up but wills herself not to cry,simply cause they are not worth it. her heart is suddenly so full of hatred she is ready to burst into little pieces. she wonders if anyone will care if all those little pieces of her became stars. would they still wish upon stars then? or will they be so occupied they forget about the true, unwavering things they have around them? shes decided. she will not make herself unhappy unneccesarily. only, is she brave enough to keep to that determined decision? she turns and sees a pair of intent staring eyes aimed at her. she blinks, surprised. then she slowly smiles a smile which betrayed the vast amount of troubles and burdens which have made her so jaded. 'why do those who dont have to care care and those who have to care dont?' she wonders for the last time as she walks out of the door and slams it shut.

im feeling emo. thats why i wrote that thingey up there. haha. im sick and i wanted to talk to someone but nobody's online. i wonder if theyre avoiding me. i hope i really am thinking too much. and its not the truth.

;je'taime