you all miss your stuff. thats great for you cos for me. oh no. cos this particular little girl has did nothing to miss in the first place.

i think im starting to figure it out on my own. i think i know the reason behind your silence. behind your lies. and you know what. so be it. SO. BE. IT. eventhough ill miss you like hell, i know there is no other way. since you dont know who i am i think ill just tell everyone here.
I AM AMANDA. eventhough i dont know for sure, my friends say im a nice, caring, understanding, comforting person. i myself know that i dont betray my friends and when im not happy i show it. i try my best not to torture my friends with my endless complaints but if they do happen i apologise immediately after that. i feel that im a good enough person for the world and am NOT a bitch slut or whore. i hope nobody has this thinking but if they do then im sorry that my whole being is so unattractive to them. i hope that enlightens.
my heart isnt back from its trip to god knows where yet. so ill tell if i hate another time. in the meantime all i can say is, i finally know i have to forget about you and all my memories, it pains me so much to do it. my blood feels all clogged up and i dont think i can think very much longer after this post, but i know i have to. its for MY own good. and you know freaking WHAT. i think its high time i thought for MYSELF instead of you all bloody 24 hours of the freaking day.

if that paragraph confused you then its not for your viewing pleasure. i feel like a trampled on 1001 times piece of worn out meat. give me a break. its finally over.

;je'taime