my cheeks hurt so so much. im scared to look in the mirror.
eyebags+tearstains+worrylines=crappy shit.
oh wth. not like anybody actually notices how i look anyway.

soooo. today was a watse of time. as usual. got really pissed. but i got the job done. and thats all that matters. it doesnt matter you guys are hypocrites and it also doesnt matter that people around me discriminate without even knowing it. it doesnt matter that i cant tell anyone what i really feel cause you arent here anymore.it doesnt matter that i look like crap and it also doesnt matter that nothing matters anymore. i wish i was stronger. really. you have no idea how much strength it takes just to do this. just to hold everything together to continue this. and im only doing this for myself. cause guess what. i know i can do it and nothing is going to stop me. help is greatly apprecaited. but if you just want to compete with me or discriminate or be a total bitch remember that nothing is going to stop me. nothing.

;je'taime