what am i? a freaking 24/7 entertainment centre? stop taking advantage of me okay. i have no more strength to make you see logic anymore. if you wanna ruin your reputation it is fine with me. ill just feel exhausted. i already threw my book aginst the freaking wall. in public. i do not need to throw something hard/sharp/breakable/dangerous/oh i dont know how about YOU against something like a moving car.

the world has changed since i was 3. we were much closer back then even if it was a total eyesore to look at the clothing. i cant believe we went to the beach for heavens sake. as in all of us. when i was 3. and we had birthday parties. and pictures were taken so often the film probably ran out after 5 minutes. and we used film back then. film. we had so much fun. everybody loved everyone. nobody thought that showing love was extremely over rated and embarassing. the pictures show so much more than real people. any idea how disappointing that is? it seemed you two grew apart after only a year. its an inference. pictorial source. see. how unfeeling it is? im treating it like HOMEWORK. it seemed so sweet. i see myself smiling without a care in the world. but then. i was 3. since when do you have cares when youre 3. but it wasnt just me. it was everyone else. is it the aging process? is it the lack of world peace? is it jealousy? i dont understand. not until today did i realise any of these. maybe i should show all of you these pictures and make you guys remember. remember that youre capable of loving. i want to remember too. i want my childhood back.after looking at the pictures ive come to this conclusion. dear family, family as in every single one, it isnt the same anymore. the tears couldnt stop.

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