i feel like a total piece of shit.

i want to like er. 'pour out my troubles' ya. something like that. but 'pour out my troubles' sounds so cliched. so ill just say i feel like screaming at somebody. throw something aginst the wall.oh not something. LOTS of things. i want to throw a fit. ya. thats it. I WANT TO THROW A FIT.

i feel like im not good enough. im never going to be good enough. i see the photos and i compare. well duh. i probably look like nothing next to her. shes probably great in studies and has a great character and sings a siren song like a pro. i feel like nothing. its so ironic. i myself feel hopeless and im telling people 'you can do it! believe in yourself!' how absolutely stupid.

maybe for once, it should be about me. maybe for once i should be the one depending on somebody. i feel like a total failure and you still expect me to support you? im only human. and if i try to help and its not appreciated, then i will not help anymore. if you dont know what you want then i will not waste my time giving you ideas which you reject. every. single. one. well you know WHAT. i am sick of feeling hopeless and like a failure. all i want is reassurance and not a model answer.sorry if i sound like a self centred spoilt brat. but i know i deserve the attention that i need right now.if you dont agree youre probably not my friend or related to me at all.hello. i guess since im nothing and youre a materialstic ungentlemanly dumbass bastard you probably think im not good enough. but i dont want goodbye.

;je'taime