went for tea drinking excursion or something with class today. and had my fill of tea for the whole year. and i also got pissed off at 11 am. there has got to be a better way to start the morning. then went to swensens with emelia and kind of banged the table and caused a whole lot of noise there(: and emelia owes me the pictures which we took(: original and unoriginal ones(:

being bored is a mood threatening hazard. because bored= go random blogs= get random murderous thoughts+get really really sad.
because i feel like im missing out on something when i didnt choose. i feel like im missing something so important and it hurts so so much. because i had a choice. and apparently i chose wrongly and let it go. and i hate not knowing if things concern me. and then i dont know if it really concerns me and so i go get so confused. oh god. i dont even understand myself. this is bad. basically i just feel annoyed and angry and sad. HEY ASS. Annoyed Angry Sad! omg. this is so lame but a totally funny coincidence.
and. i just want to do something! i cant just sit here and watch you waste your life away because you can do it dammit. youre just a coward afraid of rejection and failing but honestly! get a grip! it hurts so much to see you like this. and if you want to know, its much better now. i dont have flash backs and urges to cry so frequently throughout the day anymore. but i have a feeling its just lying dormant. it has been quite long after all. so yaa. i just have to learn dont i? ha. bye.

pictures another day(: and so sorry to bore you guys with silly illogical blog posts. just really really bored(:

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